Feelings Of Sadness For Michael Jackson

As the new Michael Jackson movie premiers to millions of people around the world each day, I can't help but have a certain sadness in my heart for this once great singer and entertainer. Even when Michael Jackson was a young child, he was already a superstar to millions of fans around the world. Then when he hit mid-age, something negative happened to him and then the last decade of Michael Jackson's life turned out to become nothing more than a series of missteps and outright crazy behavior. From allegations that he abused children, to all types of strange beliefs - the Michael Jackson we all knew through his music turned out to be something entirely different in his private life.

Now days, everyone has an opinion as to why Michael Jackson acted so strange when he hit his 40's. I still remember how he turned the music world upside down with his "Thriller" album of which I watched the video of that title track on MTV - hundreds of times before I finally got tired of it. Back when "Thriller" was first released to the public, Michael Jackson looked and acted like any normal person that you would meet on the street. However, it was not long before Michael Jackson's behavior started to take a turn for the worse and somewhere during that time period - Michael Jackson became a reclusive figure just like Howard Hughes did decades before him. I believe some people do well with money and fame, while others wither and die.

It is clear now in hindsight that Michael Jackson did not do well with money and fame and neither did most of the rest of his family. From recently released documents about Michael Jackson's wealth and debt at his death, it is clear that it was not only Michael that had a huge problem with living above his means - but his entire family seemed to be feeding off of him to keep their large lifestyles afloat as well. All that expensive living by Michael Jackson and the rest of his family is the main reason why Michael Jackson agreed to do the "This Is It's tour in the UK in the first place. Now that Michael Jackson is dead and the coroners reporter revealed the extent of his frailty when he died, it is now easy to see that there was no way that Michael Jackson was ready to preform a nightly tour that was filled with heavy dancing and exercise.

That is why I still believe that Michael Jackson had made an internal decision to end his life. In the same way that some people who are depressed can never actually kill themselves so they find a segregate like a police officer to do it for them - I believe that Michael Jackson found the right group of doctors that would help him end his life without him actually doing it himself. There is no doubt in my mind that Michael Jackson was very depressed in the days leading up to his death. As I have learned from past experience, depression all too often leads to suicide and with all the depressive medications that Michael Jackson was consuming each day - he most certainly had a depressed mind before his death. When you add that depression to an upcoming concert tour that he was not physically able to preform, then suicide seems like a likely reason why Michael Jackson is not alive today.